Dreams/Nightmares

With the pending surgery, i have felt almost all emotions that I could possibly feel.
Dreams/nightmares are the biggest things that repeat themselves lately. I have been having dreams like crazy, some very positive and some just downright strange and scary. I won't go into depth because it tough to even think about them during the day since they take up most of my sleep.

When i dream or think of the bad parts about the surgery, as weird as it sounds, i think it is sort of therapy. Its kind of like flying. When i worry about it, nothing happens. I think i would be cautious if i wasn't worrying about it.

This is major surgery, of course i am going to be scared. I am greatly appreciative to be able to get this surgery. It is a lot to think about. If i can just get thru the first 24 hours without flipping out from pain i will ok....LOL!!!